aren't we just lovely ;-)

she's my bundle of joy... she never left me when i was depressed... she made me smile even in my saddest moments... she lighten up my darkest days... i really loved her though she's not my kid... but she's someone i can't get enough of... 

my little bora ;-)

my favorite lines from 500 days of summer

Rachel Hansen : "I know you think that she was the one, but I don't. I only think you're just remembering the good stuff... Next time you look back, I think you should look again."
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Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.
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Tom: Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: And I can't give you that. Nobody can.
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Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.
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Summer: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.
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Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate.
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Tom: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.
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Tom: What happens when you fall in love?
Summer: You believe in that?
Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.


*sigh* watched this movie on christmas day and new years day :-) and i cried... *sigh* my remedy movie, i guess hehehe

sweetest pain...

looking back at what happened to me made me realize that life is not always a bed of roses. not all drama we watched on tv are make-believe... it does happen in real life. the biggest drama in my life happened when my fiance called off the wedding! it was august 26... everything has been set... the date... venue... rings... favors... entourage... sponsors...






the effort... time... love... everything was put to waste...

four long years... not bad at all... never had a big fight... almost perfect... but the perfect times ended... in just a snap... happy thoughts turned to sad ones...

painful... devastating... my heart totally damaged... i thought i'll never recover... almost died...

but God has His way of saving me... saving me from a bigger problem and more painful experience. this is His way... painful yes... but it's the best way. His own sweetest way of making me realize how He loves me.

i am saved... this is the sweetest pain...

saved from the fires of hell...

I was supposed to get married today... Yes today, December 19, 2009. But it was called off, i got dumped! It was painful... Wickedly devastating, I was miserable... But then i thought... WHAT THE HECK?! I am totally free! And it feels good to be FREE! I imagined how my life's gonna be like to be with the person who's not really "the one". Surely it's gonna be like hell after tomorrow! WTF?!

Well... Thank God! I am saved... Saved from the fires of hell. The coming days will be heaven for me. I am better off single but not alone. :-)

Happiness! ;-)

Lab Test – Checking My Sugar Level

6 am --- me and Erick went to Capitol for my lab test. No food intake and water since 10 pm the other night. It’s really early but it’s better actually. Wala akong kasabay sa laboratory.

The procedure was really painful… guess how many times I got injected to get blood samples… THREE!!! Waaaahhhhh!!!

The first was ok… just the usual prick of a needle for blood tests. But the nurse explained to me that there would be another after an hour… he made me drink a cold juice also but it was soooo sweet. It’s the glucose stuff and the hardest part there is that I cannot drink water… he only allows me to sip… as in konting konting sip… grabe!!! I almost throw up…

Sobrang torture… no food, no water… and my bf needs to eat breakfast before going to work… can you imagine me watching him while eating. He’s fascinating hehe coz he still bought me one bottled water… which I can’t drink at all.

Then the waiting is over… I went back to lab for my second shot. Another torture… the vein on my left arm is not visible… the nurse said that it’s very thin… and then he injected the needle… and it was sooooooooooooooo painful!!!! OOOUUUUCCCCHHHH!!!! Coz, he can’t find the vein, but then the needle was already inside my skin and he keeps on tapping a part of my arm while the host was wrapped tightly on to it! Waaahhhhhhh!!!! I told him to stop coz it really hurt. So what he did was to go back to my right arm where the first syringe was injected. Then he said, “malapit na ma’am matapos yung paghihirap nyo… after an hour, balik ka ulit for the last shot.” Whatduh???!!! Another injection???

What can I do… I asked for this… I can’t just back out. Then there I was… waiting again for another hour to pass… and turok again for the last time… haayyy… but this time, the nurse really tried to find my vein on my left arm and it was a success!!!

It was already almost 11 when I finished with my lab tests and I was really starving and thirsty. Then for a week, I had these four purple marks in my two arms… tsk tsk tsk… terrible…

Pre-Conception Check Up

Getting married takes a lot of preparation. It is one way of checking if you’re really okay before you give your whole self to someone. It’s knowing whether you’re capable of having a baby or not. And it takes a lot of courage knowing you’re health and what’s going on with your body.

I had my first meeting with my OBGYNE last June 3 and this was actually my first time to have a regular doctor to check on me. I had my papsmear and well, it was kinda creepy. I was all nervous that my hands and body were shaking after the procedure. It was really awkward and I just can’t stop shaking… my mom even asked me why I was shaking.

Then my ob explained the need to start taking folic acid --- it’s a vitamin for a healthy preconception I guess… then she has to see my sugar levels and if I have ovulation. So I was scheduled for a lab test and transvaginal ultrasound. Lab test may be done anytime when I am free. I just need to fast starting 10 pm and have my lab at 6 am the next morning. Then I was also scheduled on June 10 to have my transvi ultrasound. I have to drink lots of water and pee before the procedure. The result of papsmear would be after a week and I’ll be going straight to my doctor for the assessment.

I really decided to have my ob even prior to my “soon-to-be” pregnancy. I really want to know if everything’s normal to me. Also, cervical cancer is hype these days. All the talks and stuff am reading about this scares me a lot. However, it’s really costly to have the vaccine. Dr. Quiambao is my ob from Capitol Medical and she’s really good and very dependable. She explains everything. With all the numbers she listed on anti cervical cancer vaccine to the pre-conception check up, I really tried to catch up on the terminologies and instructions. All the more that I like her because she’s really open and answers all my questions.

The Secretary:

Maribel is the name of Dr. Quiambao’s secretary. She looks scary and not so friendly. At first I really hate her because she seems to have an attitude problem. I first met her when I accompanied my mother for check up. We were endorsed to Dr. Quiambao’s clinic (which is why I also decided to have her as my ob). Somehow, doctors should choose a pretty and friendly secretary because that’s the first person you’ll meet in the clinic. Hehe, Maribel is the opposite. J But after a series of appointments with Dr. Quiambao, she seems to treat us differently… from being Ms. Sungit to Ms. Friendly.

I just can’t forget her in one of our appointments… she asked me, “ano po yun?” and I told her, “may appointment kme with Dr. Quiambao.” She answered, “Dr. Quiambao or Dra. Quiambao?” Then I said, “hmmm Dra. Quiambao…” Then I checked the name signage on the door… there might be another doctor in the clinic similar with the other clinics in that floor. To my surprise and hahaha, it was really funny… there’s no other doctor in that clinic other than Dr. / Dra. Quiambao!!! LOL!!!

Hmmm… funny girl…

valentine's day

How can one celebrate this special day without splurging or spending? Fine dining, romantic setup, great food and sophisticated, classy venue… and yet not even a dime was spent??!!! Wow… how could that be? As for me and my baby, we had this very romantic date without even spending a single centavo… well, just gas. :)

Fine Dining – catered
Romantic Setup – Tiffany Chairs, Flowers and Classic Themed Setup
Great Food – Buffet lunch by CVJ
Sophisticated Classy Venue – Oasis Manila, Pavilion

Well, last February 14, Erick and I attended the grand food tasting of CVJ at Oasis Manila. Actually this was the second time we enjoyed the food of CVJ. We had our first food tasting which was exclusively prepared for us. Then we were again invited on this grand food tasting so that we could witness the set up of the reception. I never imagined how the preps will be this exciting!

Actually CVJ was the second caterer we tried (the first being Hizons). We loved the food and the set up of the reception area. Hizon’s also have good food especially the dessert and elegant reception set up. But they can’t provide tiffany chairs for the ceremony setup. We requested that our guests during the ceremony will be seated with tiffany chairs but Hizon’s limits it only to principal sponsors. CVJ can provide all tiffany chairs both reception and ceremony setup. We can’t say any negative stuff about CVJ. We met Joanne, who in fact is the owner of CVJ and stands as our AE. She’s very accommodating and open. She listens and suggests. They’re not that aggressive in advertising but they are known through word of mouth. Liza, our AE in Oasis introduced us to CVJ. She said it right… we never had a problem with CVJ. Joanne is a hands-on, working President of CVJ.
Our lunch date ended with Erick and I signing up for CVJ as our caterer. We’ll be meeting Joanne again this June for the details.

We continued enjoying this special day attending the bridal fair at megatrade hall. A lot of brochures and wedding stuff we collected as we roam around the venue. All these stuff found its way to the trash bin hehe :p SJT happened to perform in the fair. I was able to video how they performed the song “I’ll Take Care of You”. Made me fall in love deeper to Erick. The music was really enchanting. We got SJT in the package from Oasis. It made me more excited to hear them on our wedding day!

Things even got better in the evening. Hmmm… not the one you’re thinking of course hehe ;P We went to see BoyceAvenue at d block! Haayyy… truly, love is in the air!!! But we didn’t finish it because of the crowd… grabe dami tao!*sigh* again… what else can I ask for? The two of us together on this special day… cheezy but not corny! :)

the venue

Erick and I started preparing for our wedding as early as January. And lo and behold! It really has to be that early especially when booking for the venue. Grabe... agawan sa date!

January 10 - we're set to meet Mr. Hardinero (that's how he calls himself) at 6 pm. We wanted a small garden wedding and from the pics I've seen from their website, we were thinking that the place would be ideal for our dream wedding. We were there at 6 pm but there was no one to attend to us. The gate was open and we've been trying to contact them but nobody was there. We waited and waited and waited... still... we didn't have a chance to see the place. Well, we immediately cross Mr. Hardinero out of our list. Nice flowers and landscaping though but we were stood up... negative vibe agad.

The following day, we attended the grand food tasting of Hizons at Oasis Manila. Talk about great food and fabulous set up. But you know what, it's not the food and the set up... it's the place --- Oasis Manila. We easily fell in love with the place. The garden and its landscaping... we really said "wow". And the pavilion... a big place for the reception. It was a really nice place... and here's the catch --- Erick --- he quickly decided to have the wedding there. As in, nagulat ako coz all the while I thought he's not interested with wedding preps... but then sya mismo nagsabi na, "dito na tayo. no need to check another venue." o di ba... demanding ang lolo nyo. He also do the talking... he asked a lot of question to the Hizons AE and also to Liza, our AE from Oasis. She's really very accommodating. And the best thing in her, she blocked our schedule agad. Full packed ang december... we almost lose our date but Liza's really fast with booking. Pay agad kami ng downpayment... kahit kulang hahaha! O di ba... Then that's when we decided to have it on december 19 coz wala ng ibang date na available in Oasis.

Here are some pics of the place... spacious sya especially the parking lot. Also good security. :)

*the garden*


*the pond*

*pathway*


*ceremony area*

*inside the pavilion*

*parking area*

wedding date

december 19, 2009 (saturday)

we never thought it would be in december. i have been wishing to have my wedding in february... nice weather, love month and it's right after the season when all the bonuses are being given -- hehe talk about budget and stuff. but then again, my wedding ended up in december. well, not just my wedding but "our" wedding.

it was a decision made by two heads... two hearts... not just one. not just me alone. a decision made not because of the weather, not because of the budget, but because we wanted to get married. we decided together... to be with each other forever... legally on december 19, 2009. it actually took awhile to sink in to me... that i won't be alone in this life... that there would be that person who would stood by me, decide with me, argue, fight and cuddle me for the rest of my life. this is it! the big thing!

well, what's there on december 19? I AM GETTING MARRIED!!! wooohhhooo!!!

I'm Back!!!!

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YES!!! I'M BACK TO BLOGGING!!! Been yearssssss!!! and i really miss doing this! so what's new here... what's up??? what's there to blog??? what's on my mind now??? what's happening to me lately??? wooohhoooo!!! A LOT!!! and now... the story of my life surely takes a new chapter here. from being broken hearted to finding new love and now... taking the next higher step to love. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! ang corny di ba... hahahaha! well, that makes the wooorrrlllldddd go round!

paranoia

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